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One of my favourite album. This is an all-instrumental album with only 7 tracks. I do not think the other albums by Departure Lounge is of anything like this...
Album: Jetlag Dreams
Artist: Departure Lounge
Released: 2001
Label: Bella Union Records
Tracks:
1. "Equestrian Skydiving"
2. "Runway Doubts"
3. "Too Late To Die Young"
4. "A Strange Descent"
5. "Purple Fluffy Haze"
6. "Charles de Gaulle To Belleville"
7. "Beyond The Beltway"Listen online:http://mp3.rhapsody.com/departure-lounge/jetlag-dreams
After shifting here for more than 3 months, I finally realised that life needs to be re-thought. Resetting my goals, dreams, lifestyle, and people relationship.
This is a stage where I need to get in touch with my inner self again. To communicate with myself, re-assure that when evertyhing changes, I need to find something that I can hold on to and have faith in, when all else fails. There has never been a period of my life that I felt so empty inside, total lost of what I should do everyday I get back from work. Cooking is mundane, so is watching tv while waiting for finally, the time to sleep and to reset the this whole procedure to start again for next day.
Weekends I woke up early, looking at the near empty but messy room, with cartons unpacked but not tidied, thinking about what to do next as weekends is out of the routine period. During the day, I have to find some activities to do during weekend, not wanting to give myself a chance to feel back the emptiness and loneliness that I feel after work.
My dream, it seems, has been attained. To finally be able to live alone abroad all by myself, and everything starts new, from friends, to house, the environment and culture. Though not the dream country, I still believe this is what people meant by dream come true. But, what about next? So what happens when your dream came true? What should I do next? Dream came true, it seems, is like the typical fairy tale storybook ending of 'Happily ever after'. Which, as you grow up, sets you wondering what goes after happily ever after. You live in the castle with your prince charming, and what's there after the adventure? What's is after that? Does the prince sets out to another adventure? Awaits the newborn prince? Gets into the daily life to dealing with the commoners' problems and make the country a better place?
Now, is the stage of reflection, to set myself a new goal, probably a new dream, and to decide what I want to be, at least for the next 2 or more years in this foreign land far away from home. Even though the weekends I do have appointments, trying to find myself some activities to be involved in, I seldom feel the same fulfillment that I felt with my life back then. Probably, I am not busier than I used to be, so I need to find something more, to get away from this feeling of lost. Or maybe, I just need to rethink if I am not having enough friends here, or just not used to living alone here... that I am homesick. I am not strong in the heart to understand what's living alone and starting everything new. I am not admitting to myself that I still have some complex inferiority about me that I cannot 'live life to the fullest' like I thought I could.
This, I hope, is a transition stage, that will make me a better person and changed myself. An exploration journey. Which, should I fail, will probably make my stay here miserable and unhappy. This, I sincerely pray, will not happen to me. I want to feel, life and see what difference I can make for myself and probably deep inside, to make me feel living again.
