情熱

母を料理をしてる背中見ると情熱って言う言葉が分かる。

今朝、お母さんはキチンでちゃんととろろ芋を削ってた。「お母さん、何作ってるの？これは朝ごはん？」母は削りながら言った「あぁ。。これはとろろ芋ケーキ作るの。明日は近所の人はとても大きいの南瓜ケーキを誂えたさ。。」

「あれ？南瓜ケーキはとろろ芋も原料ですか？おかしいな～」まだ分からない私そう言ってた。「そうじゃないよ。。。今のは練習することだ。とろろ芋と南瓜のテキスチャ似てるから、今はとろろ芋で練習したいんだ」

そうですよね。もっといいケーキを作りたいためにずっとがんばって練習して、料理の熱情だから。母は料理が好き、それから毎日楽しく料理を作る、新しい料理と毎晩食事のメニューを考え、毎日の時間は無駄じゃない。平凡の生活が毎日の目標と情熱があるから、生きている意味があるの。

とても以前一人友達は私に生きてるの情熱はなんですかと訊いた。あのときの私、今の私と同じだ、生きてる情熱がないって答えられた。　でもいつか探せる、情熱がないというより情熱をあげるものをまだ見つけられる方は正しいだ。

About the Bin Removed

It's really weird when one fine day the bin in the pantry of the office was removed with a note saying that you should throw all your rubbish, especially food stuff, in the big garbage bin outside the cargo lift. Naturally, because of the inconvenience caused, we hear people grumbling to colleagues about how funny that the pantry do not have a bin for them to throw their rubbish.

One fine day, after we almost got used to the tiny bin in the pantry that only allow throwing of teabags and facial tissues in replacement to the big bin... I overheard somebody complaining to the cleaner about the removal of the bin... 'So inconvenient to throw things now, why remove the bin ah?' The auntie replied 'Have to remove lah, the cockroaches have been found inside the ice fridge beside the bin you know...'

'Alamak, how come like that? Why the cockroaches want to go inside?' 'Don't know, maybe the cockroaches want to have air-con after makan...'

We blamed the cleaner auntie for removing the bin, but we do not really know the story behind. The roaches in the ice fridge incident happened way before and vaguely remembered that we are totally disgusted and wondering how could there be roaches and how did it ever get into the fridge...

It came to me that things not explained will lead to misunderstanding on certain actions that are done. And I am sorry for complaining about the bin not there in the pantry anymore. If this small inconvenience will make the pantry a cleaner place, I do not really mind at all.