Well, I do understand that life isn't a bed of roses, and even if it is, it would be a bed of roses with thorns...
There are always difficult major decisions to make now and then. Like getting married, having kids, quitting your job and do something totally way out of the world, break up with your girl/boyfriends, invest your life's savings into a house, jumping down from the top of your building etc. etc.
Probably from this aspect, my 'difficult' decision to make would be nothing but a trivia matter, at least, comparing to that of jumping down from a building... Regardless, it is still something major for me at this point in life.
I am not a decision-maker by nature, I always choose the wrong thing in personal life, which I later on regret. Thus, I do not like making decisions, most of the time, I guess is just going with the flow when destiny presents me with opportunities. Better still, let others make the choice, or go by my famous 'elimination method' - the choice is made because there are no other options.
It sort of made me lazy and probably all the more incapable of making a correct decision. It becomes a vicious cycle, that I delay the decision hoping something would happen to make the choice more obvious, or *something* that will eventually decide for me...
At this very time, I am forced to make another major decision that will affect my life either way, and I really really hate to do that. It is always a struggle between wants and the reality. Either way, I know I will be affected, and it seems at this point, there is no divine intervention to show me the way... I'm still struggling with it, and both option A or B, will eventually upset me. Probably have to meditate and hopefully there is another "option C" for me.
Life is a bed of roses with thorns, but why cannot those thorns just be a bit easier on me?
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