Life is Vulnerable

Life is just like a champagne glass with a very small base - a slight push is all it takes to break it into many pieces.

She was admitted to hospital and almost died, collapsed and wasn't breathing. A relapse of a sickness that was mistakenly diagnose as neurotic depression initially. Luckily, she survived, with the correct medication to help stablize her condition.

Almost couldn't believe that I had to go to CCU to visit her, it was like a sign that it will be the last time I will be seeing her face, alive. My friend went in and burst out crying, coming to me with all tears and asking me to go see her. I was more cowardly than I thought... Waited outside and refused to go in, just seeing her face from afar and trying to grab the lie that she is okay. I don't want to go in and have the feeling of 'to see her for the last time'.

After dragging for 10 over minutes, I gathered enough courage to go beside the bed, seeing her face. It wasn't that pale as I thought, and she could speak, but not clearly.

'I was afraid that I might never see you all again.' was what she said to me. I almost lose control over my tears. I couldn't stand there talking to her for long, as I didn't want to cry in front of her, it was too depressing. Death is so heavy to talk of at the moment. It was then that I truely felt how life is so fragile, just like candle in the wind. Her life was flickering like a small candle flame and struggling painfully to stay alive.

I was knocked with the truth that friends may just die any moment and leave me; guessed I wrapped myself with the comforting but stupid and naive thought that my friend will always be living well and healthy.

Thankfully to whatever, she is fast recovering and was transferred to normal ward now. However, her mood and feelings would be one of the crucial point to determine her full recovery.

I hope she can recover fully, be healthy and stay happy. To her, we may not meet that often, or even talk to each other frequently, but I know nothing is more comforting and happy than to know that she is living, and healthy.