Graduated~!

Wahahaha... AT LAST~!! All the torturing and sufferings I've had has come to an end as I say bye bye to 2006....

It may be a bit late to post here now... But I'm so happy to say that I have completed my part-time course~! No longer a jailbird and am free to go out and can start on the things I want to do...

It's a bit of a scare for this semster though. The last 2 subjects were Advanced Supply Chain Management (ASCM) and Strategic Analysis and Decision Management (SADM), after 5 months of struggling between expanded work responsibility and the additional projects and study, the results were out during mid-December... Suprisingly, passed SADM with a credit but badly shocked that ASCM failed with an unbelievably low 36 marks out of 100. I know that I could not have failed, though I have not really put in much effort, it is enough for at least a pass, which was what I have been aiming for throughout the course.

The next day, my project mates and I went to Alberton to clarify on the marks, since all of us scored the same low marks out of 100 points. After more than a week later, the marks were updated again in RMIT website. They forgot to update assignment 1 and 2 scores into our final examination, thus explaining why the marks were so so low. The updated result is a pass, because the 2nd assignment was handed up rather late and our group failed badly. Am not too bothered about just having a pass, eventhough it will look good if this subject has a credit too. However, one of my project mate still could not make it even after the adjustment, because assignment 2 dragged overall results down to just 3 marks away from the borderline... An appeal letter was sent to Alberton twice, and we all understand that a lot of things has happened and troubled her during the later half of the year; really prayed that her appeal can be accepted and she can also graduate with us by early 2007.

Well, anyway, this is the last post for 2006, a year which is not too good to me. It's been a very busy year and I hope for 2007, I can do some planning and start changing my life for the better. Lastly, HAPPY 2007 NEW YEAR TO ALL~ MAY ALL WISHES COME TRUE AND PEACE BE WITH US ALWAYS.


[Bye 2006, and Hi 2007!!] C'est Eileen et moi @ G2000 during a sale...
PS: The cute little sock I am hodling is YY's handphone's clothing. I found this pic when tidying up tons of photos on my PC... 懐かしいな～ (好懷念哦~)

Happy Birthday

（Posted @ 00:00 of 26 Dec 2006. I， 24 liao... T_T）

oh~ By the way:

Happy Birthday to moi,
Happy Birthday to moi,
Happy Birthday to moi~~
Happy Birthday to moi!

Thank you all for your very kind sms, emails, presents, birthday treats and well wishes!!

在此多謝各位鄉親父老，兄弟姐妹們對小妹我的關愛與祝福，真是讓我感動地不能言語，痛哭流涕，老淚縱橫呐~.... oops sorry... 用錯了....Anyway, 請受小妹深深一鞠躬以表心理的感激！！
多謝多謝，thank you thank you, terima kasih, ありがとうございました, merci beaucoup, gam siah gam siah, duo zei duo zei....

About the post

Well, firstly, being the very lazy person I am, email is the greatest invention in replacement to snail mail in my perception. Without email, I do not think I will even post any letters/greeting cards to friends in Singapore, much less overseas... Eventhough I would really very much like to receive cards and letters from friends... =P

Anyway, I really cannot believe how blur I can get sometimes, or maybe is just because letter-posting is something that I have forgotten how to do it afterall.

Email do not require postage, but snail mail does. Because I got soo used to email, I happily posted a letter to overseas (with some money and a greeting card!) through snail mail, without the postage on! Lagi best, I even forgot to put my own address at the back of the envelope! I must have been thinking of that 'email address' is automatically tagged to the snail mail and people can easily reply me... Sigh... I don't know where the letter went, but hopefully, singpost can return this lost letter admist trillions of mails during this festive season.

P.S.: Hiyo.. Raining for dunno how many days liao, wanna go out also sianz... Rain rain go away, come again when I am in the office!

Faith

Faith is having a new album soon... ^^/
Only that I've waited for 5 years for this new album. Sometimes, I think I am kinda lucky that I never really did like the chinese pop idol singers, if not, I would have spent a lot of money just buying their new albums like twice a year for the next 5 years perhaps. That would really amount up to quite a sum.
Then again, if you really like your idol and his/her music, 5 years for 1 album is simply too long. Moreover, there's only 3 albums done for the past 6 years since Faith first became a singer in 1995. So, after the 3rd album's done, there had not really been any news of her except for last year and this year of her activities in drama theatre works, Taiwan only, unfortunately.

Well in anyway, the new album is to be launched officially in Dec 01, an early Christmas present for me... I've put up a small ad for her new album, those who like real music apart from the chinese cutiepies, please click the ad.

First Hint of Christmas in 2006...

Is today when I went to Vivocity to window shop after my lunch. I saw the it at first floor with few Christmas Trees and Christmas tree decorations are all up on the shelves for sale.

It was then did I realise November First is today, and Christmas is really coming in less than 2 months' time. It is not far away, considering this 'Christmas feel' will start lingering in the air starting from December.

I always have this very special and rather... complicated feeling towards Christmas. Especially excited and happy, yet espeically depressing and nostalgic all at the same time. It is not because that my birthday is round the corner (I don't feel especially 'special' on my birthday), but maybe because this is the last holiday that notes the end of a year. It makes me think back on things that I have done for this year and things that I did not. This comes along with the rather exciting hope of the New Year and what it has in hold for me.

It's complicated, and it starts making my hormones go crazy and my emotions starts getting capricious. Even the touch of a leaf or rainy weather will get me all emotional and start to wonder about things in my life and others... I become sensitive like that of a poet. Too bad, I don't know how to make poems, else I will be making poems about life and stuff... ha...

Well, perhaps this is the last blog before my exams. I hope after that, I can put in my more effort to throw more rubbishy, 'readable' and entertaining compositions in here to get rid of cobwebs and dust.

情熱

母を料理をしてる背中見ると情熱って言う言葉が分かる。

今朝、お母さんはキチンでちゃんととろろ芋を削ってた。「お母さん、何作ってるの？これは朝ごはん？」母は削りながら言った「あぁ。。これはとろろ芋ケーキ作るの。明日は近所の人はとても大きいの南瓜ケーキを誂えたさ。。」

「あれ？南瓜ケーキはとろろ芋も原料ですか？おかしいな～」まだ分からない私そう言ってた。「そうじゃないよ。。。今のは練習することだ。とろろ芋と南瓜のテキスチャ似てるから、今はとろろ芋で練習したいんだ」

そうですよね。もっといいケーキを作りたいためにずっとがんばって練習して、料理の熱情だから。母は料理が好き、それから毎日楽しく料理を作る、新しい料理と毎晩食事のメニューを考え、毎日の時間は無駄じゃない。平凡の生活が毎日の目標と情熱があるから、生きている意味があるの。

とても以前一人友達は私に生きてるの情熱はなんですかと訊いた。あのときの私、今の私と同じだ、生きてる情熱がないって答えられた。　でもいつか探せる、情熱がないというより情熱をあげるものをまだ見つけられる方は正しいだ。

About the Bin Removed

It's really weird when one fine day the bin in the pantry of the office was removed with a note saying that you should throw all your rubbish, especially food stuff, in the big garbage bin outside the cargo lift. Naturally, because of the inconvenience caused, we hear people grumbling to colleagues about how funny that the pantry do not have a bin for them to throw their rubbish.

One fine day, after we almost got used to the tiny bin in the pantry that only allow throwing of teabags and facial tissues in replacement to the big bin... I overheard somebody complaining to the cleaner about the removal of the bin... 'So inconvenient to throw things now, why remove the bin ah?' The auntie replied 'Have to remove lah, the cockroaches have been found inside the ice fridge beside the bin you know...'

'Alamak, how come like that? Why the cockroaches want to go inside?' 'Don't know, maybe the cockroaches want to have air-con after makan...'

We blamed the cleaner auntie for removing the bin, but we do not really know the story behind. The roaches in the ice fridge incident happened way before and vaguely remembered that we are totally disgusted and wondering how could there be roaches and how did it ever get into the fridge...

It came to me that things not explained will lead to misunderstanding on certain actions that are done. And I am sorry for complaining about the bin not there in the pantry anymore. If this small inconvenience will make the pantry a cleaner place, I do not really mind at all.

Complains

Recently a lot of disruptive issues happened at work. It made me feel very bad about my efficiency and could not really help but start to get grumpy and complaining about every single thing that did not go the way it was supposed to.

Really, complaining to anybody, including colleagues and friends or family is not a bad thing. I feel that after complaining, it actually takes away the stress that stores up inside the heart and make yourself feel better. In fact, after complaining, I will always feel relieved and that a load is lighten; ready to face the next challenge that comes along.

However, complaining too often and turning myself into a grumpy old woman is not a good thing at all. Unfortunately, because of the need to de-stress myself, more often than not, I feel that I am complaining too much, telling the same story to different people over and over again. The results? Instead of feeling relieved after complaining, I get even more angry and started getting more grumpy. It becomes a bad cycle that the more you complained, the more angry you feel and the more grumpy you get with more complaining...

Maybe, I should just stop. Take a deep breath and sleep early to start saving energy to face the next day, instead of reflecting too much on the bad things that have happened today.

We look forward to tomorrow, thinking that it will never be worse than today.
We look forward to tomorrow, thinking that today is not the worst day of your life.

最近，心情有點鬱悶。
清晨上班途中，仰望著陰天，感受細雨打在臉上。胸口有點悶悶的，淡淡的寂寞隨著細雨打在手上，臉上。。。 長常地吐了口氣，繼續往公司的方向前進。

俳句

暑い昼
虫が鳴いてる
夏の歌

Handphone Spoilt

My handphone spoilt liao! And I didn't even drop it once since I bought it. I merely changed my phone card to the other phone because my own phone's batt was running low... Then when I tried to change it back, it wouldn't work anymore! I was like 'oh shit what the fish?? ' This phone is less than half year old lor...

Later tried various ways to revive it, re-charged, and plugged into the PC hoping the software installed can save it... Unfortunately, it still didn't work. Looks like I will need to go down the service centre to get it fix, which till now I have yet to go since last week... 'cause I no time plus too lazy... sianz..

Anyway, now I will occasionally check for sms using my bro's phone, and now 'radiation-free'. Just realised that one day I am like a parasite, using my bro's phone, and when the phone batt ran low, I just hop over to use my mom's phone, then my aunt's phone... taking out their card and using their phones...

Not too bad lah, just hope that people won't get frustrated when they cannot contact me via phone...

Long Time not here..

Long time not here liao.. so ocassionally come out here to clear the cowebs and stuff... found some comments that's been sitting for approval for quite some time, oops! Sorry.

Anyway, recent events has been rather ... uneventful.. as usual. Bought a new novel 'The Time Traveler's Wife'. The story is a bout this guy by the name of Henry (I prefer to call him Henri [on-her-ee], sounds better) whose genetic clock goes haywire and he keeps travelling through time to past and future, and how he met this girl Clare and both of them tried to lead normal lives, have relationship while coping with his problem.

So far, I am almost 70% through and it's really a good book to read, though his frequent disappearances or 'time travels' gets a bit rather bland after some time to me. It's really romantic, to a certain extend. How she tries to keep up with him and cope with his disappearances for a few hours and back to her childhood days where he gets to participate in events throughout her life even before she knows her... blah blah...

Of course, this is fiction. However, I just couldn't help but imagine what if I were to be Clare.. would I be like her? Willing to marry such a man who's participated my childhood life; put up with the time when he suddenly disappears, and cope with being worried about him or just afraid that he will disappear and never come back? It takes a lot of courage, love, and trust to be with such a man and to lead such a life. That amount of courage, the solidity of trust and depth of love... probably do not exist in this world after all.

Podcasting is cool~

Right, I think I am really a bit slow to catch up with some latest technology and Internet gigs, but hey, at least I tried to find out the latest stuff.

Talking about this, the first time I heard about podcasting is around last year? That more and more people are using podcast to be a DJ, playing out really alternative songs and some stations are actually attracting quite a number of people with the like. Heard that setup was rather easy, just download a few softwares, get yourself a mic to plug to your PC, get a broadband and there, you are ready to go.

The other time, I heard it from Lush 995 that they are also onto podcast. Out of curosity, I went to podcast.net (PodCast.net) to get a look and found out this really cool station, which I suppose should be rather popular compared to others of the same genre. If you like chillout, lounge and tri-hop, try this: Dave's Lounge (Dave's Lounge).

This guy is really cool, giving a weekly podcast that displays a series of downtempo music found on the Internet. Other than just giving the music, he also gives an introduction to the song, and which website to find. Going to the website will let you know if you are able to purchase it via i-Tunes, though I see that only around 60% of the songs can be found at i-Tunes.

If you don't have a Juice player to download the episodes, you could find it in podcast.net and starting listening online with quicktime player. So far, there's been 41 episodes, latest on 29 Mar 06, so it's quite a lot of download though.

Anyway, for others who may be interested, go to podcast.net to find a station that suits your music preference, there are just so many stations to browse at.

Guys on the buses

Simply hate guys who open up their legs real big when they sit on MRT and buses especially. We know that your LP is big, but we are not interested and you do not need to show us. Please close up ur legs so that we can get our butts inside and not fall off...

Basically, these guys sometimes occupy almost 70% of the bus seat, leaving little space on the other side and I really have difficulties keeping myself from falling off when the bus takes a turn. I used to try to use my legs to push inside, hoping to 'fight' a little bit more space. Maybe next time I should just use my mouth to ask them, "Excuse me sir, do you mind to close your legs up a bit, I believe you don't have a 10ft (that's the size of a whale's, in case you are wondering) in between your legs. Thanks."

Posting to Destress

Battling with my laziness to complete my assignment now and really stressed up on what kinda bullshit I should put into the paper to make up for the word counts... grrrhhh... help..

Good Old Days

Was talking to Ms. MIA (MJ) earlier about meeting up with poly classmates recently and found that I really missed those good old days during poly when life is just about eat, play and dream about talk about the future...

Then suddenly, realised that I may be one of the lucky one who managed to still really keep in contact most of the mates these years on and off after graduation. Eventhough I haven't really been making a lot of efforts to organise gatherings...

It is a good and kinda nostalgic feeling to meet up and hear about their current situation and to exchange the latest gossip... It's perhaps the only thing that we can keep amidst all the changes that we cannot prevent.

I don't know why it feels kinda sad and lonely when I think about it though.

Environmentally Political

I was reading this article on the Straits Times yesterday about the Artic Glacier that is melting at a rate that is faster than what the Scientists forecasted a few years back. So now, the sea level is rising at a faster-than-expected rate and in less than 100 years to come, some of the lower lands in US will be underwater soon...

The writer was analyzing why, when such obvious warnings have been announced to the world leaders to curb fossil fuels burning, lowering energy consumption therefore reducing global warming are not heeded.

Politically, environmental issues are just not a priority, as compared to the country's economy, nuclear issues and lately fighting terrorism globally. We all know that the world will die if we do not do something about it, but we just keep thinking that there is still time and resources and it can be done later, after the issues with a 'higher' priority are resolved first.

However, these are just signs to show that we did not take these warnings seriously, and until the time human really do realise, it will all be too late for us. The environment pacts & policies between the countries seem to be somewhat 'cosmetic' or just a strategy to build up political relationship with other countries. Take for example the Kyoto Protocol that is signed by some of the top greenhouse gases emissions countries. This includes US, EU, Australia, India etc. The US, though signed, did not oblige to the protocol to cut down on greenhouse gases emissions, giving the reason that other developing countries (such as China and India) did not sign this Protocol and was also unhappy between the 'unfair' classification between the developing and the developed countries in the Protocol.

Firstly, Kyoto Protocol is really aimed at cutting down greenhouse gases emissions of each country, with the ultimate objective to reduce global warming. If you are really sincere about this, then why in the world would you want to question this 'unfair classification' between the developing and developed countries, and just because you feel that China is exempted, when she is the top greenhouse gases emitter, you will refuse to do it? By the way, according to EIA (Energy Information Administration), US emits more carbon dioxide than China does.

Kyoto Protocol does not have any penalties if it is not obligated, which is why, till now, gives US the chance to play 'why is it that she does not need to do but I have to??' game. Sounds childish? That's exactly the game they are playing now.
Worst, the US president is now more concentrated on war games, nuclear development, fighting terrorism and has, at an earlier period, even attempt to downplay the effects of global warming with human acitivities. Simply saying, environmental issues are not on the agenda right now. And if it is ever going to be, it is most like to come with some political payoffs.

Baiscally, cutting down on greenhouse gasses depends on individual country, and if each country's leader is keen on doing a good job, they will not, in the first place, think about why some countries are not obliged to do the same thing. They never think about this same reasoning when it comes to the nuclear treaty though.

The Austrlians follows the US whenever they go, decided not to obliged to the protocol too, because the PM argued this would stress their job unemployment rate, and that the Australians have done enough on cutting down Carbon Dioxide emission. The opposition Labour Party disagreed, indicating the Protocol as a 'risk-free' and that Australia will have no problem in obligation, since they have done enough to meet the Protocol's standard. They went with the US to sign the Asia Pacific Partnership on Clean Development and Climate, which does not set a minimal limit to reduce greenhouse gasses. Simply, it's a 'own time own target' agreement, which, involves China. Will the US ever sign it, if China is not in? Another point to add, this agreement is a no-obligation agreement. Which means, US can set easily attainable target, and still show that it is 'conern and making an effort to reduce greenhouse gasses'.

This will continue and more 'cosmetic' environmental friendly agreement will come out, while environmental issues will become more pressing in the future. When will it come to a point that politics can be set aside and we truely see the meaning of these agreements?

*Information can found from Wikipedia and Straits Times comments*
*Writer is really analyzing situation base on surface evidence and commentaries from other sources. Writer is not responsible for any misinterpretation of information and comments are purely based on personal thoughts*

About Travelling...

Yeah~ set for a trip to Redang~.. '夏日蒙茶茶' here I come~ ^_^ Please imagine me running in 3 dot bikini to the beautiful sun, sand and to the sea~ orr yeee orrr~~

This time am going with my colleagues, hope that it will be really fun~ especially with the snorkelling acitivity available there. Though I cannot swim, I will grab a 'life-saver' hunk and venture out bravely to the water to 'molest' the fishes of Redang...

Reminds me of the other time I went to the Fishing Kelong... It was just great! The fishes are swimming near the toilet just waiting for the food to come from you.. then a few steps away, you see the staff fishing and the next moment, you have fresh bbq seafood from the beautiful water... Aiyah, we still ate that la... it's just the food chain in a shorter, more direct version.

Okay, anyway, am really set for the Redang trip this time, and I think I will grab my dad's fishing rod again and go there fishing with the uncles down there while looking at the babes and hunks playing beach volleyball..

And then, am also saving hard for my year-end trip to Japan (hopefully).. given the condition that I can passe my courses. Then I will go for a good trip to reward myself, maybe I will go with my friend or sister or go alone. But the latter is not really possible, because I will not get any parental's consent. However, I still think I should try travelling alone again. It's really hard to find someone who fits exactly to your interest and where you want to go except yourself, it's really a 100% freedom roaming about the country. Of course, going with friends will give you a broader view of the country, if your friend knew some place that I may not even have researched into.

Aiyah~ just can't wait for this year to quickly pass... so many exciting things waiting for me after this year... ^_^

~ 自作孽不可活 ~

This phrase perfectly describes what I am now... January is already in the mids, and now I am biting my fingernails awaiting horrible february to come... (doesn't it rhyme?)

The whole month is basically going to be occupied with lots of classes because it is the starting of the a new, but heavy semster, with both subjects starting off with transport... transportation management and economics....
Tell me how I am suppose to deal~ with you?? (Michael Bolton - How Am I Suppose To Live Without You)

Okay, enough of crap, let's continue with the grandmama's complaint of the day...

Then there is, of course, the language course that's being continued for 2 years, just that I have changed it from a Sunday to Saturday, and I guess I cannot sleep through the classes anymore, because the new teacher quite strict and sweet. Beautiful (oh!) but tough. Unfortunately, she said that she is responsible for classes of the same level, which means that I cannot escape from her clutches to continue my slacking attitude...

Starting Feb, I would be enrolled to a course sponsored by the company, followed by the normal Wednesday drumming practice... provided I can still be alive and continue playing after the Feb performance is over...

Needless to say, on top of all these, the once dream job (bian pia mia) has utterly turned into one with deadlines to meet and tons of things to learn with sooooo little time.

All in all, it goes to say that I will extremely busy like the flips of a rotating fan... and I will miss meeting my friends for at least half a year...
Frankly, I didn't really think of this point until my friend told me that if I continue to be such a greedy girl who thinks too highly of her own capabilities, I will have to sacrifice time to meet with friends and have family gatherings to cope with all the load.

Hey ah ******, thanks for reminding me that, so can you please tell me what is the solution to this? Cut my throat and let all the blood out just like old times cut-the-chicken-throat ritual?

Aiyo... I am like a cloth that is squeezed so dry that not a single engergy juice is left in me... might as well... this is literally suicide.

Sighed -
A bimbo wannabe

- Taking Photos -

I realised that I am never good in the photos, one sentiment that almost surely, most of the women would have. Analyzing the mentality behind it, believe that it must have been due to the complex combination of inferiority in one's look and the strong desire to be that somebody you appreciate. Most of the times, I see myself as one of, if not, the worst in a group photo. Well, if not the most ugly, certainly one that blended in too well with the background. Eventhough, the first look at a group photo would bring my attention to the person, me.

I do think that there are people who are with confident, not inferiority, but who are still not satisfied with their outlook, what they are being projected as in the photos. Of course, there are those who just say it for the sake of not getting yourself into an image of being proud or over-confident. I guess this is maybe an Asian culture (if not, then maybe just Singapore culture?), to seldom say 'hey! I think I look grreat in this photo, oh gosh!.. I just looked so beautiful in that, don't you think so?...'

So, much of the discussion when flipping through recently taken group photos among friends will be 'aww.. look at my hair, what a mess! Doesn't it look like a nest when I stand beside you??.. 'God~! I look so fat in the photos!!!! (this exclaimation is suppose to last for the rest of the day.)'.. 'Hey you look great in this shirt, should have got the same one as yours'.. 'Gosh! Look at my awful face, don't really know how to smile in photos.' etc..

To say yourself looking bad in photos may mean another thing: I am beautiful, but not photogeneic.
Conclusion: **I will try to tell myself this eventhough it may not be the truth...** (hey, I said it MAY NOT be the truth okay...)

Noisy Library...

I wonder if the new National Library situated at Bugis Junction has some changed rules. Today was the first time I stepped into the central lending library session at basement 1, and there was a lot of people there, borrowing and browsing the books. I must say that the library has successfully attracted a hoard of people there, whether or not they are really interested in borrowing any books.

I saw families bringing their children to the library, and what a sight to have the children, lots of them, running around the borrowing machines and lounge area, talking loudly, screaming and crying. Then, there are adults, talking loudly to children, discussing among themselves, without awareness of the people around who trying to read, and frowning.

Was it my mistake that this area is actually not part of the library? I thought that is rather like a lounge outside the library instead of a place for people to sit on the sofas and read. Looking around, I hope to find some 'please keep quiet' sign, and surprsingly, none was found (I hope I missed the sign, rather than it was not put up at all). I gave up trying to read, went to the borrowing machine, got my book and left, with a sigh.

The library, is a place to read, QUIETLY. If parents have any intention to bring their children to the library to borrow books, they should seriously educate them not to run around the shelves like some playground, and to keep QUIET at all times. I really think that parents is serious about bringing the reading habit to the children, they should browse the books with the children, let them know this is a place to learn and not play.

The inconsiderate and rather 'wet market' attitude of Singaporeans has brought a rather unsightly mark to this elegantly and newly built library.

wah~ so fast so fast...

OMG~ i cannot believe one week just passed (left with only 3 hours plus.. [SST]) with a blink of my eyes. After my school project, comes another deadline, and it seems that I cannot make it to the end at all. Especially with so many things to be done at work.. UATs, ALINK, Pegasus, meetings, statistics report, wuwahh~~

Cannot believe that I have not seriously clear my flooding mailbox for this week, with all the reds that just got archived without being read... then receiving phone calls asking me about this and that.. :x

(||:( I think i got so much older after this week, and the coming weeks...

Thi is so mundane, everyday I am doing nothing but blogging all my complains to everyone who happened to read this.. :X hahaha.. I'll try to get something more worthy to read the next time... pls hang on for a little more while.

Holiday ah..~ itsu kuru ka na~

Juz blogging off..

I wanna go overseas!! Been on this tiny island for too long, visited the same old places for soo many times that I am getting really bored.. I need fresh air! I want to go outside to see that bigger moon.. orh...

Tempted to go Hong Kong la~, blame those frequent advertisements on the TVs and all the "ooohh... must go Hong Kong!!" from been-there-done-that friends.. the endless temptations...

However... ah.. restricted financially etc... harsh reality really got me..

Break

My life is whizzing through, like a full-gear Ferrari. Everyday is always busy with the god-knows-what, no time for extra this and that.. whoa.. Even the weekends are not spent on a little look-at-sky activity and reflect on yourself activity. Before I know it, the dark eyebags started coming out, dry skin with outrageous breakout. Aged and looked 10 years older my age, and the heart almost stop pumping after living 200 hundred years of stress in that short 20 over years of life.

Life is too hectic, I would really prefer to take it slowly and even feel the time slipping slowly through the tip of my finger... Instead, I found myself riding an express bullet train, with my colleagues and friends sitting beside me, unknowningly that we may have pass the station of old friends gathering, family get together, or even rest and relax under the evening sun by the balcony. When is the final stop? Why and where are we rushing to? Till the end, have we actually enjoyed the scenery outside with a full 200 km/h blasting forward to nowhere? (or maybe to death itself)?

Gosh.. where is my coffee.. I need a break!

ちょっと

私は最近ちょっとストレスかな～　なんかいつも頭の中にばかなことしか考えられない。。

やっぱり大学のと日本語の勉強同時にしたら大変だた。早く卒業になってほしいな～

Gloomy Sunday

Gloomy Sunday" aka "Szomoru Vasarnap"
Composed by Rezsô Seress

Sunday is gloomy,
My hours are slumberless
Dear as the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers
Will never awaken you
Not where the black culture's
Sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thoughts
Of ever returning you
Wouldn't they be angry
If I thought of joining you?

Gloomy Sunday

Gloomy Sunday,
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I
Have decided to end it all
Soon there'll be candles
And prayers that I say I know
But let them not weep
Let them know
That I'm glad to go
For death is no dream
And in death I'm caressing you
With the last
Breath of my soul
I'll be blessing you

Gloomy Sunday

Dreaming, I was only dreaming
I awake and I find
You asleep in the deep of my heart
Deep

Darling I hope
That my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you
How much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday